Okay people! 8 weeks and counting!
As some of you caught on Facebook, we actually bought new baby things for Meredith at TJ Maxx this week. This was momentous for two reasons. First, I was surprised that there were things that we didn't have for Emma. Apparently I was not a prepared as I thought Second, my head keeps saying "why bother; you'll probably just have to return it anyway..." which is why I haven't bought anything at all for the last 8 months. I was able to tell my head to shut the fuck up. It felt good. For the first time in this pregnancy, I felt hopeful that maybe, just maybe, everything will be alright. I felt more excited than scared. It was quite liberating.
So yeah. We're moving ever forward. I have another ultrasound on Tuesday, and the first of my bi-weekly fetal non-stress tests. I'm not super excited to be in the doctors office twice a week, but at this point, I would do pretty much anything to make sure I get to see my baby.
Here's hopin'!
